Who's TheeGreenMuse?

Hi! I'm Aude-Edwige, and this is where I step into my alter ego, TheeGreenMuse. Becoming her has been anything but easy: it’s been messy, uncomfortable, and full of moments I didn’t see coming. When I first came up with TheeGreenMuse in early 2024, she was just an idea. A name I gave to the version of myself I wanted to be. Back then, I didn’t realize how much she’d evolve or how important she’d become to me.

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By April 2024, I gave her a name and a vision, thinking she’d just be something to keep me inspired. But life hit me hard. A heartbreak showed up: not just from relationships but from facing myself. I had to confront things I’d been avoiding in my life: toxic cycles, hypersexuality rooted in past trauma, chasing validation in all the wrong places, and my constant struggle with self-discipline. Starting this blog didn’t make all of that disappear. I’m still working through it, every single day. TheeGreenMuse is far from being perfect. She’s about evolving, growing, and showing up for myself even when it’s hard. And that’s exactly what this space is all about: taking it one, intentional step at a time.

For the longest time, I thought I was just... broken. I clung to people, overthought every little thing, and felt like I needed constant reassurance just to feel loved. I didn’t know why I was like this. I just assumed it was me, that something was wrong with who I was. Then I came across the term “anxious attachment,” and suddenly, everything made sense. My patterns weren’t random. They came from the things I’d been through, times when I felt invisible, not good enough, or abandoned.

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That realization was both freeing and hard. It forced me to face things I didn’t want to: like how I used hypersexuality to feel wanted, even when it left me feeling emptier. Or how I overgave, hoping that would make me worthy of love. Or how I silenced my own needs to avoid conflict. But instead of letting those truths break me, I chose to let them guide me.

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That’s how I realized TheeGreenMuse isn’t about having it all together. She’s about progress. She’s the part of me that chooses growth, even when it feels impossible. She’s my reminder that healing isn’t linear, and it doesn’t have to look perfect to be real. Every time I slip up, I remind myself: becoming her isn’t about failing but learning and doing better every time.

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Starting this blog was like unlocking a version of myself I’d been hiding for years. Writing as TheeGreenMuse has taught me that I’m allowed to want more for myself. I deserve love and respect, starting with how I treat myself. TheeGreenMuse is who I’ve always dreamed of being: soft but firm, grounded in her worth, and no longer willing to stay small for anyone.

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This space is my way of saying: I’m done staying small. I’m breaking free from the expectations, the doubts, and the stories I’ve told myself for way too long. I’m not just surviving anymore, I’m thriving.

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TheeGreenMuse isn’t just who I want to be. She’s already here. And every single day, I’m becoming her a little more..